I can't explain myself, I'm afraid, sir because I'm not myself you see.

I wonder if I've been
changed in the night?
Let me think.
Was I the same when
I got up this morning?
I almost think I can remember
feeling a little different.
But if I'm not the same,
the next question is
'Who in the world am I?'

A Favourite line of mines in
Lewis Carroll~Alice In Wonderland

Another Good one for the Graphic Design Portfolio. www.meilinginc.com

COMPANY: Abovegroup
Photography/ Concept: Alex Smailes
Graphic Designer: Tanya Wiliams
Video Work for E-invite and Collections: Ravin Ramkissoon


I'm just about to finish my first year at Abovegroup and may I say I've never been so emotionally drained in my life and it not be because of a boyfriend.

Lots of achievements as a Graphic Designer and lots of personal growth that have not come easy.
Additionally, my personality has never, ever, ever been so challenged!

No longer in the safe space of 'people just like me' or among a massive 'Collective' of talented and massive personalities that allow you to hide away in your own mental and personal space and just create your work while seeking shelter in their shadows and just be the 'little sister' of the group. I am shoved into situations and spaces that really challenge me. The majority being personal challenges with personalities, others and my own and an overwhelming load of responsibility I found at times way too much to handle.

After Meiling's website I took a break in hopes to find the energy to do even better when I get back!
Somehow I never feel like I know enough or am enough to do and be who and what it is I want to be but you would be mistaken to
take that as insecurity or take my quietness as a weakness in me.
I am always questioning things and myself and wondering if this is where I'm suppose to be? Is this what I'm suppose to do?
Is being quiet and taking the bull shit at times for the sake of the lesson really that good an idea?

I'm not always sure but I know that so far I've only grown tremendously and have a lot more to do.

It's about getting that problem that makes no sense to you the first time you look at it and thinking
How The Fuck Am I Gonna do this? Or What The fuck Am I Doing?
Taking a deep breath then start working at it. Through all the stress and all the bull shit and surprising yourself along the way as you start to see something beautiful form and everything else, all the bull shit, all the stress doesn't matter anymore, not at that moment and no matter what anyone says or doesn't say YOU JUST DID THAT! You just overcame and solved another problem.

Just like life. One day at a time. One project at a time. Work it the best way you can until you find a solution.

I love what I do. The creating, the making, the experiences and how it affects the rest of my life and adds weird colours to it.

I am confident that I'm on the right path. And it will change and grow at it should and as I want it to be.

LINKS:
http://www.meilinginc.com/
http://meilinginc.com/launchparty/
http://aucourantinthecaribbean.blogspot.com/2009/06/meilings-new-site-folkloric-wonderland.html


MY FRIENDS HAVE SAID,
"Trinidad and Tobago needs more design. Not borrowed concepts and solutions.
Not borrowed rhetoric that doesn’t apply, but rather creative solutions geared for
our site specific problems." Richard Rawlins-Associate Creative Director at CMB Ltd.

"We will define by the very act of making what we love; What Local Design is!" Marlon Darbeau- Senior Graphic Designer at CMB Ltd

IT'S NOT MY BIRTHDAY!

• Birthday Girl

13x18

Acrylic on Canvas

• Just Stop and Look

at Me.

13x18

Acrylic on Canvas

ADELE'S SKETCHBOOK REQUEST.

"My Visual Diary. A purposeful Invasion of Privacy."

ADELE SENT THIS REQUEST:
Dear All,
I am doing a segment on sexypink where I look inside artists sketchbooks.
Would you be interested in sending me some pages from yours?
Thanks so much.
~A

I realised I have 24 sketchbooks!
So Instead of attempting the tiring task of scanning these pages I decided to just take pics and while along this trip down memory lane I came across a number of very cool things, old drawings, old memories, old people and one of the other really cool things were drawings by Anderson, Marlon, Cheewah even a little Japanezza writing i turned into a face thanks to Kim! and little post-its by Indra about 'the gold shoe' and Richard, 'the post-it he put in that Stefan Sagmeister book he gave to me when I left CMB'. (Yes I keep all that shit! :)

Other than all that, thanks Adele for reminding me to draw and why I love doing it.

EROTIC ART WEEK..

Well, while all my artist and designer friends exhibited for EAW, I didn't. A surprise to most considering that I'm often asked about the erotic nature of my work. Unfortunately I just didn't get the chance to do new work in time :(
However! I did manage to take part in the festivities and I had a great time! I even helped at the event and I have an 'Erotic Person' badge to prove it! :p

All in all it was very successful in my opinion. Great, Great job Dave! I'll be taking part next year for sure!

http://eroticart-tt.com/

DOWNLOAD THE DRACONIAN SWITCH ISSUE OF EROTIC ART WEEK!
http://www.artzpub.com/download.html